How much have You grown?

Growing up is the one thing that we can't avoid. No matter how much Peter Pan wanted to stay as a boy, he just couldn't. If he stayed as a boy, he wouldn't care about Wendy. 


One thing I have realized lately is how much I have changed. Well, you can say how much I have grown. At the very first semester of my college study, I was still this naive, childish-looking, don't-care-about-what-others-think kid. I was so reluctant and care-free. I have a very childish path of thinking, very short-termed.

Now, it's been two years and I can say I have changed a lot. From style to mind aspects. From taste to hobbies.

Changes :

1. I used to not work out, don't have the intention or willingness to do it anyway.. NOW, I'm all about 'let's go to the gym and be healthy! Kick some ass there!"

2. I used to wear my Winnie the pooh shirt to campus. NOW, I think I donated the shirt to some poor kid.. I don't even remember what happened to that shirt.

3. I used to think that I don't wanna have a job like my parents. NOW, I am considering their career path and I think that's the easiest and fastest way to earn a living

4. I used to be moody and emotionally unstable(labil). NOW, oh please, what's up with that.. -__-" I don't even wanna be near with anybody who is emotionally unstable..

5. I used to be naive, very naive. NOW, I don't trust people easily, I rethink everything, I don't take sudden decisions, I always consider the benefits and lost of being in particular situations..

6. I used to take dating seriously. NOW, I think dating is just a fun thing to do with no future.. well, in my defense, I'm still young. I don't even dare to think about marriage..

7. I used to not have any income except from my parents.. NOW, I am a tutor and I opened an online shop with my sister.. check it out : www.facebook.com/vivianneonlineshop

It's not much, but at least I'm doing something independently, not by any help of my parents..

There are also several things that remain the same though..

1. I'm not into violence of any kind.. lol

2. NO MATTER how much I changed (whether I realized it or not), I still consider myself a girl, not a lady yet.. and I still have so many flaws that I need to work on

3. There's still that special someone that I have always been attracted to but do nothing about it...

Symbolism, a toad sprang out of her mouth..

As a literature student, I tend to read many classic tales. This morning I read one of Grimm's fairy tales which was titled "The Three Little Men in the Wood". I was amazed by how the Grimm Brothers were able to put so many symbolism elements.

Here is one of my favorite line which I read this morning :

"A toad sprang out of her mouth at each word, so that everyone who came near her was quite disgusted."

This line was referred to a girl who is hateful and really mean in all kinds of way. I personally think what Brother Grimms really meant by the toad was actually the hatred or resentfulness the girl blurted out every time she had the chance.

In reality, in fact, in the present days, I still encounter with these kinds of people. They only spread hatred towards others without having a logical reason in the first place. I feel wary and uncomfortable to be around these people as I have no interest in spreading negative energy, which I think is very tiring. If that person keeps spreading hatred, eventually people will resent from being near her due to her words. Just like the toads coming out from the maiden's mouth, it makes other people disgusted. Oh my God, you can't imagine just how much I can relate this symbolism to these kinds of people that I presently know.

Yeah, I'm disgusted by people who only blurt out hatred. For what reason do you think I'm interested? Can't we just live happily without even bothering them if you hate them in the first place? Why do you care so much for what they're doing or having if you hate them so much in the first place? Aren't you tired of only finding their flaws? Do you think you're the most perfect human being that they are so flawed?

GODDDDD... these kinds of people should have an epiphany or some kind of enlightenment I guess.. I'm just sooooo not interested in hearing hatred or prejudice to other people, that some I even may not know at all..

Don't you realize, when you're talking bad or holding a prejudice towards others and you keep telling your closed ones how much you hate them, you are only making your closed ones suffer and wary of hearing your complaints. In the end, they will ignore or even avoid you..

I don't mean we cannot hate people. We are, in fact, still human and we are capable of holding hatred towards others. But can't you subside these feelings? There are more important positive things you can focus on. It's tiring to have so much hatred, you know..

Lesson of the day : don't make yourself disgusting due to non-logical prejudice towards random people.. cause if you do, seriously, you are disgusting..

spread some love, people! *reebek*